Chapter 5: The First Practical Steps text

We did not speak for a while after that. I drank the water. Garrison refilled the dog’s bowl and returned to his chair. The kitchen smelled faintly of coffee that had been made hours earlier and wood that had been heated by the same stove for decades. Nothing about the room performed comfort. It simply offered a table, two chairs, and the absence of Julian’s voice.
When I finally picked up the attorney’s card I saw that the name was not local. The office was in the city, an hour and a half away. The kind of firm that handled high-asset divorces and did not advertise on the sides of bus stops.
“She already knows the outline,” Garrison said. “I called her this afternoon when I saw the locksmith’s van. She is expecting you tomorrow morning. You do not have to use her. But if you do, she will not be surprised by the bank records, the insurance cancellation, or the fact that the car was never actually in your name.”
I turned the card over once and set it down beside the key.
“And the house?”
“The title is joint. He can change the locks. He cannot sell it or refinance it without you. That gives you leverage. The attorney will know how to use it.”
I thought of the ultrasound pictures still inside the house, the small box on the top shelf of the closet that Julian had never asked about and I had never been able to throw away. The thought no longer arrived with the same sharp edge. It arrived as a logistical problem: things that needed to be retrieved, not symbols that needed to be mourned in the middle of a stranger’s kitchen.
“I need clothes,” I said. “And my laptop. My work files are on it.”
Garrison nodded once. “We can go over in the morning. In daylight. With the attorney’s office already informed. He will not be able to claim you abandoned anything if you appear with counsel and a written inventory.”
The practicality of the sentence settled something in my chest that six years of clinic hallways had never managed to settle. No one had ever spoken to me in the middle of a collapse as if the next step were simply a matter of sequence and documentation.
I looked at the man across the table. The silver at his temples. The quiet way he kept his hands still. The fact that he had held a medical report for fourteen months and waited until the exact moment it could no longer be dismissed as interference.
“You’re not just a former sheriff who lives alone with a dog,” I said.
May you like
Garrison’s mouth moved in something that was not quite a smile.
“No,” he said. “I’m not.”