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Chapter 10: Distance

By the second month the event had settled into the kind of story people no longer repeated.

Vanessa made no attempt to return or to reach me through intermediaries. Daniel’s earlier instructions held without needing reinforcement. Staff turnover and the ordinary arrival of new temporary workers did more to clear the air than any formal announcement could have managed. Faces that had been present in the foyer rotated out; faces that had never seen the footage rotated in. The house’s memory, like most institutional memories, proved shorter than individual ones.

I worked. I took my breaks in the same staff room. I went home on the same bus route with the same brown bag and no longer scanned the seats for familiar faces from that night. The remaining tension lived mostly in me—an extra half-second of caution when someone new entered a room I was cleaning, a habit of keeping my hands visible when I was near open jewelry cases or guest belongings. Practical adjustments. I refused to call them fear. They were simply the small revisions a person makes after learning that years of quiet reliability are not always armor against a single staged moment.

One evening Marta locked up with me and said, after a stretch of comfortable quiet, “You’re still a little quieter than before.”

“I’m fine.”

She studied me with the frankness of someone who had cleaned the same corridors for a decade longer than I had.

“All right. Fine is allowed. Just don’t confuse fine with having to carry it alone.”

We walked to the corner together. She talked about her sister’s new baby and the price of butter. The ordinary company helped more than advice would have. At the bus stop she squeezed my arm once and headed in the opposite direction. I rode home with the city lights moving across the window and felt the distance between the foyer and the present moment widen by another small, useful degree.

That weekend I cleaned my own apartment with more attention than it strictly required. I reorganized the closet, washed the curtains, and cooked a proper meal instead of eating over the sink. The actions were not symbolic. They were simply mine. No camera needed to verify them. No guest needed to revise an opinion. The quiet of the space belonged entirely to the person who paid the rent.

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I slept without the old loop of images.

In the morning the bruise in memory had faded another shade.

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