Chapter 10: What We Choose

Six months later, the leaves were starting to change color.
Luca had moved into a house ten minutes away from the bakery. He still came by almost every day, but he never pushed for more than I was willing to give. We were taking things slowly — painfully slowly — but it was working.
The twins had started calling him “Papa” without anyone telling them to. The first time Lena said it, Luca had to turn away so they wouldn’t see him cry.
One Sunday afternoon, after the bakery closed, Luca took the four of us on a picnic by the lake. The twins ran around chasing butterflies while Luca and I sat on the blanket.
He looked over at me.
“I’ve been thinking,” he said. “About us.”
I waited.
“I know I can’t ask you to marry me again,” he continued. “Not yet. Maybe not for a long time. But I want you to know that I’m not going anywhere. Whether we’re together or not, I’m going to be in their lives. And in yours, if you’ll let me.”
I looked at him — this dangerous man who had once terrified half of Chicago, now sitting on a picnic blanket with flour on his shirt from helping me at the bakery earlier.
“I’m still scared,” I admitted. “Of trusting you again. Of getting hurt again.”
“I know,” Luca said. “And I’ll keep proving myself until you’re not scared anymore.”
I was quiet for a while.
Then I said, “I don’t hate you anymore, Luca. I haven’t for a long time.”
He looked at me with something like hope in his eyes.
“That’s a start,” he said softly.
Lena ran over and threw herself into Luca’s lap, laughing. Leo followed right behind her, trying to steal one of the cookies we brought.
I watched them together — my children and their father — and felt something I hadn’t felt in years.
Peace.
It wasn’t perfect. There were still days when I doubted everything. There were still moments when the old pain surfaced. But every day, it got a little easier.
I looked at Luca and smiled — a real, genuine smile.
“We’ll figure it out,” I said. “Together.”
Luca reached over and took my hand, intertwining our fingers.
“Together,” he repeated.
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And for the first time since I ran away three years ago, I believed it might actually be possible.
End of Story